It has been years since my last blog. This isn't part two of the previous blog, I unintentionally deleted it and i don't have a back up copy. Too bad i can't write it again. Well what has been done has been done. Let's go ahead to the next chapter.
October 28,2012
10:07pm
I'm in a 9pm to 5am shift.
Earlier this night i had a talk with my mother. It's regarding the Profession I studied for - NURSING.
I graduated last March 2011;
completed my OR and DR cases last Summer 2011;
took the NLE Review at Mind's Nest Review Center,AMYA Branch;
took the NLE at UIC Father Selga;
recieved the results on Febuary 2012;
I PASSED!!!
It all paid off.
my efforts
my mother's mother's struggle
my aunt's sacrifices
and everybody who helped me overcome that not so pleasant part of my life.
Don't get me wrong.
I am more than thankful because my aunt and many others helped me to go to college.
It's just that I tried to love what I was in but I really can't force my self to love it.
Maybe I was just resistant to it but I really can't see myself as a NURSE someday.
I am basing this judgement to my personality and capailities.
I am an average person with somehow a CLUMSY mind.
I mean,with my clumsiness i might get patient stay longer in the hospital.
I am SLOW.
Everybody who knows me well are oriented to that attribute that i possess.
How in the hell can a SLOW person become an effective NURSE!
Well,anyway
The reasons why i am releasing these sentiments are:
1. ayoko mag NURSE;
2. I bet patients will not like to have me as their NURSE;
3. I don't like going to work feeling empty;
4. empty feeling gets worst by the end of the shift due to sense of unfulfillment;
5. I want to do what i want;
6. to stop doing something because somebody is telling me to do it; and
7. I want to run my life the way I WANT it to be.
