RN Heals

It has been years since my last blog. This isn't part two of the previous blog, I unintentionally deleted it and i don't have a back up copy. Too bad i can't write it again. Well what has been done has been done. Let's go ahead to the next chapter.

 

October 28,2012

10:07pm

 

I'm in a 9pm to 5am shift.

 

Earlier this night i had a talk with my mother. It's regarding the Profession I studied for - NURSING.

I graduated last March 2011;

completed my OR and DR cases  last Summer 2011;

took the NLE Review at Mind's Nest Review Center,AMYA Branch;

took the NLE at UIC  Father Selga;

recieved the results on Febuary 2012;

I PASSED!!!

 

It all paid off.

my efforts

my mother's mother's struggle

my aunt's sacrifices

and everybody who helped me overcome that not so pleasant part of my life.

 

Don't get me wrong.

I am more than thankful because my aunt and many others helped me to go to college.

It's just that I tried to love what I was in but I really can't force my self to love it.

Maybe I was just resistant to it but I really can't see myself as a NURSE someday.

I am basing this judgement to my personality and capailities.

 

I am an average person with somehow a CLUMSY mind.

I mean,with my clumsiness i might get patient stay longer in the hospital.

 

I am SLOW.

Everybody who knows me well are oriented to that attribute that i possess.

How in the hell can a SLOW person become an effective NURSE!

 

Well,anyway

 

The reasons why i am releasing these sentiments are:

 

1. ayoko mag NURSE;

2. I bet patients will not like to have me as their NURSE;

3. I don't like going to work feeling empty;

4. empty feeling gets worst by the end of the shift due to sense of unfulfillment;

5. I want to do what i want;

6. to stop doing something because somebody is telling me to do it; and

7. I want to run my life the way I WANT it to be.

 

 

 

 

 

Passion Prefession

Hi! Call me Laine. it's 2:52 am of feb. 14, 2011 and i'm blogging. I'll be having an exam later. It's on my major subject, Seminar in Nursing. I am currently a fourth year Student of San Pedro College in Davao City. My course is Bachelor of Science in Nursing. If God permits.,. I'd be graduating this April 5, 2011. HOPEFULLY!!! XD.

Studying Nursing was a "whole lot", (well maybe not, i'd consider "almost" or "most of time"), like HELL for me. It wasn't what i really want to do. Well right now my thoughts are like missiles, just bursting without grace. Let me gather all the ideas first before i introduce what i really want to blog and what i mean with "Passion Profession."

Let's start with my fourth year in high school....

It was a sort of time for career planning..blah blah blah.....

it was the booming of the Nursing profession.. it was on trend because nurses get rich in the US. It was everybody's desire to become a nurse. Well, not me. It wasn't a dream...

My Mom's dream is to be rich.. and hearing the nurse thingy interests her. I'm the eldest among her children.....so i'm the first to go to college. well it's a bit nakakapressure...hmmm..

i really want to take up HRm Hotel and Restaurant management. i really don't have a background of this course. I thought of having it because i was thinking it involves Cooking and becoming a chef. I really want to be good in cooking. i want to study to be a master on it. But I can't afford to send myself to culinary school yet.

My mother was also facing the problem on how to bring me to college. You see, my family is not well of, my father's a security guard and my mother is a Government employee.

Then i was thinking how will i go to college...

Mom and me sat to talk about it. She gave me an offer from my relatives.. Somebody would send me to school IF i'm going to take up BSN.

I was a child that time, immature, indecisive, follows what mother says because only she knows what's good for me. I am just her child who should follow her rules and advise. I should follow what she tells nme to do. It's for my benefit.

I can say i am a late bloomer. i am.

Therefore i took up nursing.

the exams were terrible,,, knee shaking

the interview??? WORST i had a bad wardrobe and a bad reputation, My mother told me to say some things that are not true to me. it felt bad.

the enrolment??? worst than everrr!!!!!! i felt very small when i walked in SPC. I was Alone, ugly, stupid. Incomparably stupid. I had a bad ID picture!

to sum it up.. I had a bad Start.

Gosh,,this seemed to be a long story i'll do the other parts next time....

i still have an exam...

4:16 am